Some Thoughts and Some Decisions

Dreamcatcher web, Hemp and Bamboo Cord, feathers ive collected as I travel 

I'm going against my better judgement right now and putting on water to make some more coffee. Maybe ill just make tea instead once it boils. But these cold indoor days got me in a constant state of warm beverage drinking. Im either incredibly productive or incredibly unproductive everyday.

SO, it is pretty much set that i am leaving NY in the second week of February! Unfortunately my funds are really low and i am stressing about this. But at the least i know i can go out West and not have to spend money, and maybe since i have time i could even make some.  I met Emma and I think her and i are meant (by the powers of the universe) to take this trip together.  But now I know i have less than a month to get ready for this and that's really no time at all!

i applied to a permaculture internship starting in May in New Mexico. This is it- 
 it is a bit of money, but given that its 6 months long and that includes food and lodging, it works out to be about 333$ a month, which is affordable (for a normal working person, ha!)

Raspberry Leaf extract, wildcrafted and made in Oregon

Pouch/Wallet. Can be used for Herbal Smoking Blend or Rolling Tobacco, Or  everyday wallet
Upcycled materials, machine sewn and Hand Finished.  This was a custom order.

SO anyone that is in any position, it would help me greatly if you bought something from my ETSY SHOP! there is a link to it at the top of the page too!


these pictures are of some of the items you will find for sale at my shop.








I noticed that a lot of the people i went to High School with are living in NYC or Brooklyn and i wonder how so many people can afford to live there and are even attracted to the urban lifestyle. Part of me gets it, everything is accessible, there is a lot of art and music and you don't need a car. There is just something about living in cities that seems so disconnected even though everyone is so close to each other.  At the same time I think it really is possible to make sustainable choices in an Urban lifestyle.  And i never thought i was going to own a car, and now i got one (even though its temp OOO out of order) cause it was the most practical mode of transport in Oregon. You can always make your own sprouts and ferments.  I just need to live somewhere that i can grow my own food, and be able to turn around in a circle and be surrounded by nature all around.

I decided on the peppermint tea and it was probably the best decision for all of us.

Any and All Leads on the next few months on the west coast are greatly appreciated!
love to old friends, new friends, and friends i have yet to meet!
xoxox

Lucid Dreams and Everything Keeps Coming Back to New Mexico

I have been experimenting with sleeping with Mugwort close to my head. I have sewn up little dream pillows with Mugwort and other herb blends, to put under your sleeping head and entertain you with more vivid and lucid dreams. I have been sleeping with these herbs near my head every night and the results have really been remarkable, i need to start writing them down.

last night i had the first dream where i had a dream in my dream. In my dream i really thought i was awake and was placing together evens of my day and realized they didnt make sense, and i had this overwhelming feeling that i had blacked out for part of it. Cause in the waking world Dana and I went to Joanna and Ike's for wine and board games and i came home and went to bed a little drunk. In my dream i thought i was awake and recounting the events and terrified about how i could not remember what i  did when i got home. Then in the dreamworld i realized i was still dreaming and that was why i was having the  chunk of time i couldn't remember feeling. So then I woke up from that dream but was still sleeping.
When i moved onto the next dream i was in a really large grocery store getting ready to go on a road trip to Montana with Ryan Howe and Ryan Naideau and Howe somehow scammed buying potatoes for less then they were marked by weighing them as something else on the 'weigh your own produce scale'. I thought about how i had 60.00$ left on my food stamp card (which i do in real life ) and that i could contribute it towards the road trip. I thought for a long time about shoplifting something like an avocado and decided at the end not to.
When i woke up it was 9:00am.

Dream Pillows i make, the herb blend is in the shell, I've been keeping that shell on my headboard at night. If you want a dream pillow you can buy one on my Etsy or contact me !

And New Mexico! all the signs keep pointing me to New Mexico. If my life was a movie you would all be laughing at me right now for not seeing my own foreshadowing. In August i found a pile of blank New Mexico postcards in a free bin in Bellingham, Wa. I took them all and came up with (in my head) " The New Mexico Project" where i would send them to friends i havent talked to in a while enjoying the irony that I wasn't in NM and wasn't really heading there. I'll mail one to you if you want!
So NM coming up:
1.I am interested in natural building and find the Earthship Biotecture in New Mexico, and my friend Jess works there and she's offered for me to visit her out there whenever

2. I am in NY and want to go back west soon and i dont want to fly. Dana comes home and says her friend Emma is driving to NM at the end of february.

3. I am trying to figure out what i am doing this year, pursuing all my common interests and i am always on allofcraigs.com (you might get addicted) and search "permaculture internship" and
this is the first thing i see ! if you dont want to click the link, i will just tell you it is what looks like a really badass permaculture interny in NEW MEXICO.

4. also, my car is in Colorado. Emily invited to Moab, Utah, short or long term. both really close to NM. So that whole region is really just aligning for me right now, and even though its not necessarily where i thought i was heading it seems like it might be where i need to go.

I could write another billion things about all the synchronicity and weird little fate-ful that happens to me.
So i don't know, maybe that is where i will find myself.

here are some pictures:

High Falls, NY

Foraged last year in California. Black Trumpets and Chantrelles

Turkey Tails, also last year California.